Giving up.

Giving up is really not an option in life. Buh at this point of MY life, yeah I gotta say, Imma fucking give up on this girl. I just cant take this shit anymore. Shes not giving one shit about me... :/ so I guess I'm not really gonna do the same.

Plus, if you have read my other posts, I guess im just not that into her. Im no doormat, that can just be used and i cant wait for her forever. :/ I thought i could. because i really thought she was the one, buh in the end... its never right. no one shall ever be right for me :(

Life is something you make up on your own. yeah, maybe you do need some ppl. buh in the end, its what you have and what you have lost. you gain yet you loose. life is exactly like that. You gain friends yet you shall loose some in the end. people who stay are the ones worth fighting for.
I guess, i couldnt fight this battle of hers , i have bleed to much for her. and i know im not going to get her at the end of this war. cuz this is just not my battle to win. :/

Much loves. x

Difficult-ness. :/

Gaah. Girls are difficult. Really difficult... Buh in this case, shes kinda like not..? I dont know. shes confusing me. its like i like her, buh then i dont. cuz shes not really doing or giving me anything. she texted me saying she was crying. i called her up and i listened. and oh how i wish i was with her... how i wish i could resolve everything... all her troubles.

buh in this case, i cant really do that can i? this sucks. i suck. i like like this girl to death and i shall do anything for her. buh then its all going wrong. why? I want her to see that i want her so bad. i want her to be mine. i want to show me that i can be her superman. i will take her hand and make sure she feels safe. i be anything she wants. i know shes the one for me.

Have you ever believed in love at first smile ? or laugh? yeah, thats who i felt. when she smiled , i know thats he was the one for me. the way she walks is so amazing. the way she laughs is cute. i find her amazingly cute. why cant she see that i can be her hero. i can be everything she needed.

Im puzzled. i want her, yet its so difficult to get her.. should i give up? or should i keep fighting this battle... ?

im stuck, i dont really know what to do.. can someone out there help me? gaah. she been on my mind like everyday...

Help me out here... :/

Much love biscuits. <3

Theres something up.

I been thinking about this girl I once knew, we're close now... and i truly think i kinda like her. my minds going wild with the thoughts of her and me. I spent a day with her, and all i could think about was being with her. You see she has this smile that i just simply love. It drives me crazy because her smile can brighten up my day.
I told her how i felt and she really didnt give a response, i dont blame her... Come on how would you feel if some person of the same sex as you told you he/she likes you... i dont think its gonna be okay.. Shes into this guy, or kinda into this guy.. i dont know. she talks about him all the time. he's kinda okay. at least he makes her smile. Im happy about that.
Someone out there can make her smile.. she with me now. shes just so amazing, shes in my school, shes a lil older.. buh like what can i say.. Im just so deeply deeply in like with her. She makes me feel weird, she makes me fall for her by the second. I want her. I really do.
Buh at the same time, i cant have her. seems like she belongs to someone else. thats definitely not me. :/ Yeah its hard i guess, buh like i said, i been rejected more then i been accepted. I dont really mind. as long as she gets to smile, and i get to see her smile. Im okay with that.
Some times in life, you dont always get what you want. buh you will always see what you have dreamed about. and i have dreamed about her shining and smiling away. and right now, thats what shes doing. shes shining like a star and shes smiling like a princess.. :) <3
I gotta say, shes amazing... she one of a kind. and i guess I kinda like her. she makes me want her. she does things that dont make sense. i dont make sense... shes different.
Shes just my type. :)

Much love betches. or as she says Biscuits. ;)